please figure things out
i look in the mirror and i dont recognize myself
i think about life and the only way im happy is if i tune out reality
im always angry when i daydream
i see every situation and play out what could happen in my head
and its always violent. i never noticed until now.
even in my dreams im angry and aggressive.
im in a fast moving car and i wish to open the door and jump out
i plan out my death down to every last detail as i lie awake at night

and then i punish myself for these thoughts
im restless until i do it
i feel guilty and weak if i dont
its worse than before?

i want to disappear into nothingness
i don't think i will ever be truly happy again
and thats okay

i just dont want to drag things out

everyone should just forget about me
and leave me alone.
im too much of a burden
i dont want to bring everyone down with me.

im the fucking dumbshit emo freak.

It's wierd how much you can miss someone
and not even realize it
until you finally see them again
also
it's strange
how much you can have in common with someone
and how almost nobody else understands you completely